It hurts

Have you ever felt the pain caused by a friend so dear?

Don't forget me now.

Made so many new friends,

And met them all over on that side.

I wonder if I'm doing this out of spite.

Created friction just for attention,

Hoping that for a second you'll just turn.

"Probably not", I decide.

I feel jealously,

It's a dangerous thing.

And I can't abide by

The fact that you don't need me anymore.

How can I know that you'll still be there?

When I call out for you and a shadow of you just stares?

So many priorities,

So many things to fill your time.

You just don't really need to care.

If you heard me saying this out loud,

You'd tell me I'm ridiculous,

And that you'll always be there.

But I feel that you're not!

You find the others so much sweeter,

More reassuring than I could ever be.

I don't want to lose you,

And I too don't know what I'd do,

But if you don't need me,

Then I'll pretend I always knew

Hopefully I'll always be just a sweet memory.

pics R out!

F..F.f. ff. f.. finally..!

K Box


At Pasir Ris park with my youngest brother, Rollerblading


Me at my workplace


More Pictures can be found at my flickr website. Thanks!

I'm going to miss them

Oh man oh man oh man...
I am sure going to miss my colleagues lots. Will be ending work by the 18th of May of prepare for my driving test. This is bcos I booked time slots in the afternoon and on the 19th would be having one. Lessons would be quite frequent after stopping work.

They are even treating me this Friday this Japanese buffet at Suntec as a farewell lunch. We went there before and the food was good. Esp the dessert!! They were the prettiest looking things and you'd only see desserts like this so pretty in cook books. The price was a little steep too for a temp girl like me.

Heard they've been planning some gifts for me on my last day. But have no idea what they are. Hmmm... Well, then I'll wait in suspense then.

The bottom points is still this: I'm going to miss them.

aargh..

Prior to my previous post.

Emotions: Anger, fustration, insulted and hurt.

Dinner at colleague's

Went over to Dorathea's(my German colleague) house for dinner the day before. She organized this as a farewell as she will be leaving to Germany with her expatriate husband because he's transferred back there to work.

Started off the evening relatively well even though instead of a 5 min walk from Novena MRT, we took 20 min to each there. Ok.. We got lost.
We begin with alcohol beverages. My colleagues were thoughtful and considerate enough to pass me the non-alcoholic beer cos they know I don't drink. Anyway, the drink still sux. So I ended up gulping down coke instead. Dun laugh at me for being such a loser ok?! I just don't drink. So next time just remember to not pass me any alcohol.

Dorathea made some German dishes for us. We had German sausages, boiled and stir-fried, mash potatoes, some really sour veg, salad, bread and pasta. I particularly prefer the pasta, sausages, salad and bread. Ok..Almost everything except the sour veg.


We then continued the evening my playing this game called Taboo. It was quite fun lah. Though if I told you pple it was a word game you'd probably be thinking: CHEY! Thought what. Strip chess?!

HAh....But I left early cos of the restrictions given by my parents. Pop back your eyes and sort out your surprised looks yeah..cos i'll admit it that I'm very much still a mummy's girl. Sad but true.

There is a time for everything

Ecclesiastes 3

There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die,
A time to plant and a time to uproot,
A time to kill and a time to heal,
A time to tear down and a time to build,
A time to weep and a time to laugh,
A time to mourn and a time to dance,
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
A time to embrace and a time to refrain,
A time to search and a time to give up,
A time to keep and a time to throw away,
A time to tear and a time to mend,
A time to be silent and a time to speak,
A time to love and a time to hate,
A time for war and a time for peace.
What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God had laid on men. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink and find satisfaction in all his toil – THIS IS THE GIFT OF GOD. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
Whatever is has already been,
And what will be has been before;
And God will call the past to account.
And I saw something else under the sun:
In the place of judgment-wickedness was there,
In the place of justice-wickedness was there.
I thought in my heart,
God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked,
For the righteous and the wicked,
For there will be a time and the wicked,
For there will be a time for every activity,
A time for every deed.
I also thought, “As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. Man’s fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal does down into the earth?”
So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

K-box

Went singing in K box from 2.30 to 8++ p.m. on Monday with Sarah, Jinny and Siew yen. Sarah sang until she felt that her throat was a little sore. So she said over dinner. It was fun lah..But not so fun to me since there are only a limited songs i know. Especially Chinese ones. Hmmph...

But anyway, Sorry about having to leave so early. I had to leave! Din mean to be a spoiler.

Anyway, Had fun with you pple! Will put up the pictures a.s.a.p!

Accepted into NTU

Course? Sociology.
Congrats Miss Toh Yong Ai Adeline you've been accepted in the course... Bleah.
Yay..I'm jumping arnd. With so much joy. ( sense my sarcasm) ?
Oh man... Damn my grades. It's always my pulling factor...Or pushing? Hmm...Kicking away is better. I just hope it's bcos of my grades and not bcos my artistic sense is in such crippled state whereby they don't even want to take a second look at my works.
Perhaps it's not so bad after all?
God has a plan....God has a plan....God has a plan...
Maybe this will knock some faith into me..
God has a plan....God has a plan....

NUS aptitude test

3 pieces of colour paper to convey the meaning of the topic you choose. Mine? Transparency. It was pathetic. If only you people were there to see it.

Sleepover/slumber party,...

Jinny and Sarah at the Carlifornia Hotdog outlet at Tampines Mall.
Jin was craving for a Cheesedog!!


The night before. Jinny showing us her Portfolio in a lime green file. Nice...


Snoozing. All three of us.


Great night's sleep! YAwn....